Sometimes You Have to Take a Leap of Faith
I'm on day 2 of a migraine, and what amazes me is that as I laid in bed yesterday with my eyes closed, all I could think about was all the things I needed to get out into the world. I'm seriously not really a writer...I'm a math girl, but sometimes, we just have to just jump out of our comfort zone and do what we think is right.
I've been pursuing my relationship with God for over 20 years now, and during that time, I've come to learn to rely on the "just jump"' feeling. The feeling which says, sure you don't know what you are doing, but you feel like you need to do it, so go for it! I liken it to Indiana Jones and the Quest for the Holy Grail. During one of the trials, Indiana is standing at the edge of the cliff and he has to walk out into nothing as a test of his faith. Of course, once he takes a step, he realizes there's actually a bridge, and he's able to get across. However, that first step is something that sticks in my mind.
In my own life, I've been at the edge of that cliff several times. I felt like God was asking me to quit my job once and go into ministry full time. I had lots of bills to pay and was making decent money as an Officer Manager at a law firm. My youth pastor position barely paid my car payment. Mind you, this wasn't the first time I had felt God ask me to jump, and even though I had learned by this point I could trust Him, this was a huge leap of faith compared to all the smaller jumps I had done previously. After some questions about timing, I finally came to a place one Sunday morning when I felt God again prod me into quitting my job. This time it was more like a stern (yet loving) father pushing me to jump. I remember getting up off the altar and walking over to my mom. I told her I had to quit my job tomorrow. She just looked at me calmly and said, "I know." The next morning, I walked into the law firm and sat down and talked to my bosses and literally told them God told me it was time to go. I did end up giving them a month's notice, so they could find someone, and I could teach them how to do my job. The day after my last day, I ended up back enrolled in college to finish my bachelor's in math degree. I didn't see that coming!
The amazing part of the story is that financially I was taken care of and things worked themselves out. I did have to learn how to function with less money, but I've learned those leaps of faith always end up being more rewarding than anything I was asked to sacrifice.
It can be a scary place standing at the edge of a cliff or a chasm and not knowing how our leap of faith is going to turn out. I'm a firm believer though in following my gut instincts (the inner voice that pushes me to do better and be more). So, when the time comes and I am staring out into the empty spaces and I can't see the bottom, I just take a deep breath...and JUMP!
I've been pursuing my relationship with God for over 20 years now, and during that time, I've come to learn to rely on the "just jump"' feeling. The feeling which says, sure you don't know what you are doing, but you feel like you need to do it, so go for it! I liken it to Indiana Jones and the Quest for the Holy Grail. During one of the trials, Indiana is standing at the edge of the cliff and he has to walk out into nothing as a test of his faith. Of course, once he takes a step, he realizes there's actually a bridge, and he's able to get across. However, that first step is something that sticks in my mind.
In my own life, I've been at the edge of that cliff several times. I felt like God was asking me to quit my job once and go into ministry full time. I had lots of bills to pay and was making decent money as an Officer Manager at a law firm. My youth pastor position barely paid my car payment. Mind you, this wasn't the first time I had felt God ask me to jump, and even though I had learned by this point I could trust Him, this was a huge leap of faith compared to all the smaller jumps I had done previously. After some questions about timing, I finally came to a place one Sunday morning when I felt God again prod me into quitting my job. This time it was more like a stern (yet loving) father pushing me to jump. I remember getting up off the altar and walking over to my mom. I told her I had to quit my job tomorrow. She just looked at me calmly and said, "I know." The next morning, I walked into the law firm and sat down and talked to my bosses and literally told them God told me it was time to go. I did end up giving them a month's notice, so they could find someone, and I could teach them how to do my job. The day after my last day, I ended up back enrolled in college to finish my bachelor's in math degree. I didn't see that coming!
The amazing part of the story is that financially I was taken care of and things worked themselves out. I did have to learn how to function with less money, but I've learned those leaps of faith always end up being more rewarding than anything I was asked to sacrifice.
It can be a scary place standing at the edge of a cliff or a chasm and not knowing how our leap of faith is going to turn out. I'm a firm believer though in following my gut instincts (the inner voice that pushes me to do better and be more). So, when the time comes and I am staring out into the empty spaces and I can't see the bottom, I just take a deep breath...and JUMP!
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