Who am I?

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Who am I? That's a question I've asked myself a lot lately. Not long ago, I would have started with well, I'm a 45 yr old single Christian woman. However, I've learned that those things aren't who I am. They are just labels which describe a part of me, but doesn't at all really express me. I'm a woman who's learning to love all of herself. Some days that is easier than others, but I can say for certainty that I love myself more today than yesterday, and will love myself more tomorrow than today. I don't make excuses anymore for the person that I am. I struggle with my weight, but even my weight doesn't define me. It makes things harder for me sometimes, but that's a topic for another day.

Even being a Christian doesn't define me. You'd think it should, but in a world where that word is thrown around so frequently, it doesn't mean as much as it used to....it's like the word love. So many meanings and so much watered down perceptions causing words which should hold some meaning to be found lacking. When I say I'm a Christian, it means I believe in Jesus Christ and choose to follow who I believe Him to be. Throughout all the things I've learned in this life and all I've been through, the one thing that hasn't wavered is my faith in God. You don't have to share my faith to journey with me. Because quite honestly, we all view faith differently, so there's no way you are going to see things exactly like I do. You don't share my experiences. I do believe in being the most authentic and loving person I can be and accepting people where they are. It's not my job to change them...just to love them. 

It shouldn't surprise anyone to know I have a minister's license. What may be surprising is that it's through American Marriage Ministries. The best part about that is that it truly allows me to be me in every sense of the word. 

I also may be single. That doesn't make me "alone". It makes me unattached to someone else. I'd much rather walk through this world the way that I am, then be attached to someone that can't walk with me. I have an amazing group of friends and family - a true support system and wouldn't have it any other way. We get so caught up sometimes trying to find someone else to make us happy, and the key to true happiness, I believe is being happy with who we are and enjoying each day of the journey no matter what may come. 

So, this is a little bit about who I am. I'm sure the more I write, the more you will learn about me. I know I have to tell my story about dealing with a not so great best friend for 8 years of my life and the healing I was able to find in that journey as well as my passions on healing and the spirit realm. Even if this journey is only for me, I can't wait to see how it turns out! <3 

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  1. Heather ReedJuly 15, 2019 at 6:38 PM

    This is so awesome. So proud of you!

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  2. Tina SJuly 19, 2019 at 12:43 PM

    Me too Kelli! So ha6for you to begin THIS chapter of learning through writing!♡♡

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